There's a reason why people don't stay who they are

Sunday, February 27

Things that are now are results of your own actions.

Take responsibility for it.

You can only blame yourself.

And nothing can stay the same

Friday, February 25

It always rains when you think it can't get worse

Really bad week. I'm tired, I'm all over the place, I'm mighty distracted.

I really can't concentrate on my midterms. Every 2 lines I read, I skip 2 paragraphs.

And I lost the pouch huishan made for me :( along with ezlink, debit card etc.

Really. Just stop getting worse already.

I said what I had to say, I apologised. I did everything I can think of already. Ball's not in my court anymore. It's up to you already.

When all you've got to keep is strong, move along, move along, like I know you do.

Tuesday, February 22

Why am I so unhappy?

I'm unhappy so much so often.

And I'm behaving like I'm 16 again.

What happened to growing up and being a better person?

What happened to you now?

Monday, February 21

Its gonna be better

I really don't think I'm doing anything right, at home, with work, with school, with friends. Omg, nothing is right.

But I've told you before, you wouldn't listen .

Now I've said it again, you wouldnt respond.

Honestly, I might be making a wrong call here. Part of me feels dead already. It's one part I know I'll never get back. And that sucks. But I don't want to keep quarreling every other week. Seeing it repeat is probably worst than letting go. At least for the record, we tried huh. Not gonna work out.

Hmm.

Anyway, 3 reasons to be happy today:
1. External drive is over
2. Really got to know some great people
3. Talked about things(one sidedly, but still)

Ok done! And I realize I'm walking away from my goal of being a better person

Thursday, February 17

I act like a bitch sometimes I know but I can't help it. Sometimes some peole dont deserve to be treated nicely either.

Anyway now that one midterm is over, it feels lot more breathable abs I feel mildly happier and less stressed :)

Yup that.... And 3 more midterms

And

Beach fiesta
Ethelontêr
Arts oweek
Slp external drive

About all! Unless I have time to go for econs camp too :D

Oh! Not forgetting 1 project and 2 presentations!

Monday, February 14

Where are you?

Tired, lost, emotional wreck.

Where are you exactly again?

Here is not very much here is it? You know how stubborn I am, I'm not going to seek you out and ask for help. But just talking about being "here" and not really trying to be "here" is not doing anything for me. So I suggest you not bother. And you don't listen.

Maybe there are some things I don't understand.

But this is very clear, you don't either.

You really don't.

And I'm not gonna spend time trying to get it across, because obviously, you're not man enough to admit that is a failure and it, already ended.

Sunday, February 6

Need to turn back and redo

Totally regretting all my decisions right now.

I wanna turn it back, I wanna redo them.

I don't know how am I going to survive. But I know I have to go through it by myself. And I know now is not the time to quit.