There's a reason why people don't stay who they are

Thursday, September 30

Who said uni was going to be easy?

Well, yeah who said it was?

I wonder why I somehow or I realise, we all some how expect it to be quite manageable. But the truth is... It.really.isn't.

Midterms just totally screwed me over. I swear. It isn't even like when I was in jc when I felt bad before the paper but alright after because the paper was in my opinion, not tough but not easy. Right now its just all tough. And it is so unknown, all these people taking the test with you probably have straights As that will own your asses any day.

And.I.Don't.understand.no.shit.about.my.sci.gem.

Just screw it, midterms are just tests. I used to get what, 3/25 for my econs tests in jc, in the end I still did fine?

Yeah right, this is uni. EVERYTHING IS COUNTED.

Goodluck Vanessa.

But had a conversation with Zhiwen on the ride home today that got me reflecting on my jc life, life as a loser. I mean, I studied hard, only did this well. What in the world?!?! So yeah, this time it's gonna be different, I'm gonna try all the things I never did try, and studies can just slack off abit since I'm not that smart anyway.

Hmmm, I think I'd like it like that more.

Tuesday, September 28

WHAT IN THE WORLD?

Hahahah "What in the world?!?!" my new fav catch phrase now (:

Anyway gone for muay thai two times this week. Very tired but very fulfilling. (But no, not much weight loss)

Just stole some time of to update a rittle. (l to r substitution because both are Riquids!) Hahahah ok bye Im gong back to econs!

Rove Rove Rove. (l to r substitution)

Saturday, September 25

My Brain Wouldn't Shut Up

Recess week was kinda disastrous ):

And it's nobody's fault, it's all mine.

It's just an integral part of me.

I can't stop thinking, I can't stop asking 'what if', I can't chill, I can't relax, I can't not be stress, I can't go easy on myself. I just can't stop worrying.

I don't know how, or why even, but I am just this way, can't help it, as much as I try, I am just so negative, so afraid of the unknown. Even when it may not be that bad anyway.

One day I will quit this and become one big ray of sunshine, so blinding you can see me from miles away.

Thursday, September 9

Super Mugger

Hahahaha, I am very busy right now.

I mostly only have enough time for hello goodbye. My mum probably sees 0% of me everyday. I sleep maximum 8hours a day, mostly less (I auto wake up 30mins before my alarm goes). I do readings on the bus and on the train. I have tuition 3 hours a week, volunteering 2hours a week (sometimes more), Muay Thai at least 2hours a week also. Rest of the time is split between maintaining a social life and school work, projects.

No time, no time!

I don't have time to watch BBT.

I don't have time to watch HIMYM.

I don't have time for a boyfriend!

Hahhahaha, but mostly its quite fufilling, although I'm tired like hell. But then again, I asked for it so okay. I'm good, will stop complaining.

Won't bend, won't break, won't back down!

Only thing I'm not that pleased about is not seeing all my lovely friends :C Must do something about it!

Sunday, September 5

Hello goodbye