There's a reason why people don't stay who they are

Monday, February 1

Love Perseveres

"I was supposed to wake at 11 but V woke me at 1030 with her call of woes. haha. I don't think I'll ever fully understand how she feels in her situation but I really want to help! So the least I can do is to listen... And I hope I wasn't too bad of one! The kids need time, & they need you to show that you have hope in them, are sincere to help and all. Wondering if it'll be right to relate to the drop-in cafe where when I first started out, the kids (by kids, i refer to an age range of 9-16 maybe?) kept their safe distance and remained in their comfort zone. It wasn't easy to break the ice. Some of them challenge you, intentionally or not. But humour worked for me. Poking fun at each other, blah. Then they started to open up after a while. And whenever the next time I visit and I hear Qhayreel's "Moooooon!" before he turns his face away to confuse me about who's calling (It doesn't work, I know it's him always.), or when I bump into them at the MRT station and they come over and say hi ask where Im going and such, I feel very warm inside. It feels like I have this bunch of kids who I can be there for, and they appreciate you. But mostly they seem to be the ones taking care of me instead. Theres this sec4 boy who was very secured in his comfort zone with his friends that at first I thought he wasn't very happy with my entry. He just gave me a black face everytime. But right before I left to prepare for my Sem1 exams, he actually said 'Bye, Moon.' and grinned at me eh. Wah I tell you, it was so _______. I don't know what word to use. And no, he wasn't grinning because I was leaving -.- Ok yeah I have this problem of not being able to stop once I start talking about them. Anw V, I know it's a different experience there where you can't go individual with everyone of them and that makes it harder for you. But it's something so new and challenging to you that I know if you put your heart to it and push yourself further (like smiling at that boy/ reduce the size of your crosses/ simply smiling more often and raising voices lesser), I'll see a new V in no time. New and better! In terms of temper, tolerance and such. Anw, the whole of this post is to let you know that I'll pick up your call as long as Im able to, anytime! So, don't worry about disturbing, I can be there for you! (: "