There's a reason why people don't stay who they are

Friday, January 30

Vanessa is exhuasted!

As my title suggests, I'm really really exhausted.

I'm sorry if I appear half hearted/say things that don't make much sense.

Wonder what came over me to walk around in PJs, AA specs, bunned up hair and pinned up fringe at 11+pm at night. Walau, see lah, pinglynn!

Friday, January 23

Happy Seedless Mandarin Orange Day

CNY Carnival today. (Gosh, updating super frquently lately!)

Got not much to mention bout today yet, but I was looking through my folders and found these, the not-so-happy-but-better-than-now 2908 days.

I Like This Photo! Weepeng, you still had loooooooooooooooooooooooooooong hair!

Posted this before, but now it seems like what H*n S**ng would say, so brainless.

I'm just glad the whole of our section get to go for SYF together :3

But of course! Not this way are we playing our songs!

Shall edit again, feeling a little sick. *Sniff*

Thursday, January 22

HuFF HuFF PuFF

I AM EXHAUSTED!!!!

You know, I really really really hate PE. I've been road running since my nerdy ChungCheng days and here I am in 2nd ChungCheng, running roads that go up and down and up and up and up and up then dow down down down. Like mountain wahlau!

Ok! Found something to make my post look more interesting...

(-:

I am fast getting abs! I swear I have to funniest classmates ever and that makes going to school alot less of a chore. Looking forward to CNY celebration tmr, can watch Daphne dance and unk Mr **** into the water again and again and again, over and over and over again! HA HA HA HA HA HA HA.

I'm finally getting a break from lessons! (eh eh eh I wanted to study tonight never leh!) Tuesday had road run and CCH and still.... I happily took an hour to walk home yknow! What an Idiot! Yesterday was down to bugis after auditions. It totally sucks that when you need a cab you get nothing. NOTHING! So irritatinggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg. Reach home 11+++++, hit the bed and slept like there's no tmr! (but there is a tmr and there's school) Been like that lately and once, I woke up with my guitar in my arms and guess what! Fell asleep practising. Wah, and I'm pretty darn disappointed with myself. Having had all the experience and all that......... sigh. I suck.

Xin Nian Kuai Le Everybody! Gong xi fa cai, siew mai, lo mai kia, lei mm hai yan, kok kok meh!

Ok, sorry.

Monday, January 19

MUST BE POSITIVE!!!

So to continue from my title... I think I should hang out more with people with positive attitude, like Daphne and maybe it'll rub off me a lil. And I am on my way to being less angsty and more smiley.!

School is well, still the ultimate tiring thing. But we get our fun, laughing at animal cruelty. Ok sounds wrong, no no, laughing at stories of rabbits and hammys. Surprisingly, stil in sync with lectures and tutorials, I guess the seriousness from everyone kinda makes a difference. Hee Hee Hee. But I like it this way (-:

Current red light in my head now is auditions on Wednesday. What if I don't make it? Ha Ha and i remember saying I don't want to go! But it always happens, I freak out! (even failed my recorder test in Primary school -.-) Practice Practice Practice! I'm derving quite abit of joy from helping out in CCH guitar and that .... H*n S**ng! LOL, there's something about him that really makes me laugh, STUPIDITY! Right!

Ok Bye, I think I wanna get out of school now.

Wednesday, January 14

PRIDE!

[EDIT!]

Right after posting this and hoping it keeps up for as long as it can..... &^%$#@!*^ Overslept and skipped school today!

Tell me I'm an idiot.

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Three days gone by kinda felt like eternity...
because it's been the three most productive and eventful days by far in JC.

I'm feeling tired that I'm sleeping lesser than usual, listening during lectures, doing my tutorials, practising for SYF(!!) and crashing back at chungcheng. Contrary to what I expected, I actually enjoy life like this. Hee hee. And helping out at chungcheng makes me feel good and bad some what 'cause I'm reminded of myself last time, so so stubborn! (and naughty) But I am now more motivated to practice harder for my own SYF and I did!

I hope this keeps up for ... for... as long as it can.

Yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!

Monday, January 12

HELLO MUSHROOM SCHOOL BADGE WHERE DO YOU GO?

HI HI HI HI HI HI!

School started today. (*Yay*)

Ended at 10 AM.

For Tomorrow also!

Felt rather good to see them again! And was surprised and happy to receive birthday gifts (: Thank You WeePeng, Su Han and Charlene! And I'll get to see Moon again. Hiah Hiah Hiah.

Ok, just blogged to commemorate.

Sunday, January 4

Holla!

BIRTHDAY POST BELOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW.

I. Just. Went. For. Plastic. Surgery. A. Few. Days. Before.

The perpetually unhappy me...

And Now I look like that!

Ok birthday post is unable to be posted but I plan to one shot post all the days (very hard to do) just that I haven't got photos from Cheryl for the 31st so wait lorrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Just summing up, was overall an okay ocassion these few days, had surprisingly only two cakes and just four days (so far) but I appreciate it! Actually, it was more like I was in the wrong mood with all the drama going on at home so yeah...

BYER off to get my present!

Thursday, January 1

17 years and 365 days

PreScript: Before I go nuts over the photos.. some are missing cause they were deleted by accident but nevermind they're mostly on facebook!

用希望展望未来，知性回忆过去。

In the year of 2008...

I attended VJ and TJ and loved it that I had the opportunity to have experienced two different environments.

I cried over the move to TJ and PW and my handphone and strange accidents.

I joined a cca with an exco who disliked me and never went, then went on the join the same cca in another school with a president that was <3

I hated school, swimming, PE and a very weird CT.

I made new friends, new enemies and never reconciled with old ones. (HA)

I got angry at ccsdontask countless of times and will remember it for life.

I learned to bake cheesecakes, like econs, about blisters and about people.

I did well. (:

I celebrated National Day with the best view of the fireworks.

I lost some, gained some, but some are still never found.

But I don't think I'd do it any other way, in contrast to last year where I groaned about regrets, well I heard it somewhere, regrets are just mistakes that we fail to correct and let go of. make a mistake, cry, learn and the move on.

The year indeed swept by quickly but it sure was a ride, a bumpy ride. I'm glad it was quick and 2009 should be even faster. Thank goodness, JC life is coming to an end.

29 of 12 in 2008

With Pinglynn Neo at Pasir Ris Park, cycling and escaping from the hustling, bustling city.

No photos because we both had the luck to lose our phones ):

31 of 12 in 2008 to the 01 of 01 in 2009

With Cheryl Lim and HuiShan Peh, falling and laughing on the ice in the midst of tons of people.

Let me explain the picture. zpicked up, blind folded, boarded a bus, got random wishes, banged nto a pillar and wahla, Kallang Leisure Park.

Fireworks on my birthday! Don't get that do you?

01 of 01 in 2009

With Debby Pauline Sim YuQian, Justina, Hsiaoen, Pearly, Chialing, Lestari and Joy who couldn't make it.

Very embarrasing moments in Fish&Co.

YuQian's face here, hilarious!

Ok, I loved my balloons!

02 of 01 in 2009

With Wong Elin at Bishan to prawn (:

Prawning deserves a proper paragraph. You know where the thrill completely lies in? It's that moment when you feel the tug in your line and you lift it so slightly and feel the tension. Then as you lif it out, a pinch of excitement and anticipation. SHIOOOOOOOOOOOOOK! ALthough it seems... you know, but I never had better tasting prawns. All the way till I fell asleep, I could still remember it rather clearly. There's this thing though, guilt and the impression that the prawn is still alive!

Prawning with Elin was also a new and totally fun experience. One of the better days but it had to end rather badly with me forgeting something really important and out goes 300bucks!

And that concludes my 18th birthday. (:

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Looking at the year ahead, I have to learn to ...

...be less emotion driven, reconcile relationships, drive(!!), like beer, quit swearing, be disclipined, be less angsty and more smile-ly, be more contented and satisfied no more self pity! getting along with people, all in all - a better person.

You know now that I'm 18 and legal, I feel lonely cause the majority of my friends are atill 17! Hahahahahah. Come join me quick quick. *Grins ear to ear* I mean afterall, being legal still needs company right?

And for my birthday next year, saving you all the trouble to plan and all, I'm just going to have a potluck somewhere, nowhere in boat/clarke quay we sit there and wait for fireworks. I bring the mat, you guys can settle the rest. But just a thought though (:

I hope 2009 is better to me than 2008 and it'll be good for all you good readers.... who didn't just browse through this post but read it nicely. Hiak Hiak Hiak!

OK BYE BYEEEEEEEEEEEER.

While a new year is a new begining, why not treat every as one, one of the begining of the rest of your life?

Smiles.