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Monday, June 30
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY
Hi, I topped Maths in class.
:O
Unbelievable! Honestly, honestly never expected myself to do that well. Although still feel like killing myself over alot of careless mistakes, I am contented. Especially since Maths had always been my weakest subject. ^^
HuiShan and MQ topped Chemistry.
:O
Super happy for them! Considering how much effort they put in, it was well-deserved. I remember how they were still mugging away when I gave up in the last week. Hope my chemistry goes well too although I have an ultra super bad feeling about it because I got a *&^%$#@! 11/20 for MCQ!
I think I have the loveliest senior on earth.
:O
Can't quite believe I just said that but seriously! You just don't find anyone half as lovely as my favourite senior. -Big Grin!-
I'm ditching my scandal
:O
Ok, after cheating on me and then cheating me. That's it. Bye!
:O
Unbelievable! Honestly, honestly never expected myself to do that well. Although still feel like killing myself over alot of careless mistakes, I am contented. Especially since Maths had always been my weakest subject. ^^
HuiShan and MQ topped Chemistry.
:O
Super happy for them! Considering how much effort they put in, it was well-deserved. I remember how they were still mugging away when I gave up in the last week. Hope my chemistry goes well too although I have an ultra super bad feeling about it because I got a *&^%$#@! 11/20 for MCQ!
I think I have the loveliest senior on earth.
:O
Can't quite believe I just said that but seriously! You just don't find anyone half as lovely as my favourite senior. -Big Grin!-
I'm ditching my scandal
:O
Ok, after cheating on me and then cheating me. That's it. Bye!
Saturday, June 28
And I Don't Know What I Feel Anymore
Now that JCTs are over and NDP trainings are drawing to an end... I don't quite feel the excitement and happiness I ought to feel.
Disappointments are slowly starting to settle right back in once all the hybridisation and what not are out. Things fail us, People fail us. Mostly, we fail ourselves. As much as I try to try my best, I always end up at the receiving end of disappointment. Sometimes I blame others for not putting in the equal effort. Then I realise, maybe its me too.
Hmm. Enough of Emoing!
Guys who are good with the yoyo are so cool! Oh, magicians too!
Ok, bye friends! Off for some time on my own.
Well, am mostly on my own anyway.
Rah, say hello to loner again. (ok, suddenly had the urge to blog more) I remember how insecure I'd always been in secondary school. Every where I go, everything I do, I must find someone to go along with me. But I've slowly learnt to be more independent and see past the need to be accompanied. JianAn once said its not about being alone but being seen alone. Have to disagree here. Feels bad to be alone and its so lonely.! Never ever really expected myself to be so close to being next to an outcast. Insecure!
But its ok, gotten far enough and the road's not that much longer! Oh, ok. I want to praise myself ! I think i've really come a long, long way. I'm proud of myself. Having been a hopeless case with music and all that's related to it (I can't even play recorder properly and dropped out of organ class-.-) I can actually play solos quite decently on the guitar! Heh. I'm not much of a modest person.
I feel like retaining myself lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Disappointments are slowly starting to settle right back in once all the hybridisation and what not are out. Things fail us, People fail us. Mostly, we fail ourselves. As much as I try to try my best, I always end up at the receiving end of disappointment. Sometimes I blame others for not putting in the equal effort. Then I realise, maybe its me too.
Hmm. Enough of Emoing!
Guys who are good with the yoyo are so cool! Oh, magicians too!
Ok, bye friends! Off for some time on my own.
Well, am mostly on my own anyway.
Rah, say hello to loner again. (ok, suddenly had the urge to blog more) I remember how insecure I'd always been in secondary school. Every where I go, everything I do, I must find someone to go along with me. But I've slowly learnt to be more independent and see past the need to be accompanied. JianAn once said its not about being alone but being seen alone. Have to disagree here. Feels bad to be alone and its so lonely.! Never ever really expected myself to be so close to being next to an outcast. Insecure!
But its ok, gotten far enough and the road's not that much longer! Oh, ok. I want to praise myself ! I think i've really come a long, long way. I'm proud of myself. Having been a hopeless case with music and all that's related to it (I can't even play recorder properly and dropped out of organ class-.-) I can actually play solos quite decently on the guitar! Heh. I'm not much of a modest person.
I feel like retaining myself lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Thursday, June 26
One More Paper to Screw! : D
I came online to log into the matrix to check the answers to Tutorial 20. Horros of horrors! I realised that Tutorial21 is tested too! :O
Whichever part of me that naively thought that I could finish studying one day before the paper should just go and die, honestly. It's not Secondary school anymore T.T
But it's ok, since maths is traditionally my weakest subject and plus, I've already screwed up all the rest of my papers. I shall be prepared to flunk the whole of my JCTs (: <- self-satisfied girn
Anyway, JCTs have been quite an amazing experience. Never have I not studied for papers, and never have I sat down to write 4(actually 3) essays in 3 solid hours! Each paper is so drainig that it just leaves all of us physically and mentally exhausted. Feels cool. All the blanks and rushing made me very miserable): but it's ok.
Welcome to JC.
Reminder to self:-
Get a mouse, slip case, and possibly a memory card reader.
Whichever part of me that naively thought that I could finish studying one day before the paper should just go and die, honestly. It's not Secondary school anymore T.T
But it's ok, since maths is traditionally my weakest subject and plus, I've already screwed up all the rest of my papers. I shall be prepared to flunk the whole of my JCTs (: <- self-satisfied girn
Anyway, JCTs have been quite an amazing experience. Never have I not studied for papers, and never have I sat down to write 4(actually 3) essays in 3 solid hours! Each paper is so drainig that it just leaves all of us physically and mentally exhausted. Feels cool. All the blanks and rushing made me very miserable): but it's ok.
Welcome to JC.
Reminder to self:-
Get a mouse, slip case, and possibly a memory card reader.
Monday, June 23
Singaporeans are really, no doubt, the kaisu-est bunch alive
*
Tomorrow is history paper, behold the one in which I've really, really not touched at all. I can already imagine the distress and anxiety I'll get after paper. At times like this, how I wish some people would be there, with me, for me. Support, yes? Xuelian, wei shen me ni bu neng zai? Huishan, Jian An, Yi Jie, minsi and the usuals whom I'd talk to before and after papers.
Now it feels so weird, to take a tough paper knowing no one's there for you! ):
*
And moon has effectively eliminated every one of my scandals as non-boyf material. Oh well (:
[Edited]
I can't believe it. Simply can't.
The usual kan cheong like siao me, can actually sit around on my bed doing nothing when my paper is in 2 hours. And its not because I'm well prepared already! I start receiving all those good luck messages and its weird. I didn't even study, good luck for? Although I much appreciate them but I'd rather deserve them. Loser me backed out when every one of my friends are working hard, aiming high. Siggggggggggh.
Shall move my butt off to school now. Beats sitting around here!
Will update on my disatrous encounter with the paper later! (:
*
Tomorrow is history paper, behold the one in which I've really, really not touched at all. I can already imagine the distress and anxiety I'll get after paper. At times like this, how I wish some people would be there, with me, for me. Support, yes? Xuelian, wei shen me ni bu neng zai? Huishan, Jian An, Yi Jie, minsi and the usuals whom I'd talk to before and after papers.
Now it feels so weird, to take a tough paper knowing no one's there for you! ):
*
And moon has effectively eliminated every one of my scandals as non-boyf material. Oh well (:
[Edited]
I can't believe it. Simply can't.
The usual kan cheong like siao me, can actually sit around on my bed doing nothing when my paper is in 2 hours. And its not because I'm well prepared already! I start receiving all those good luck messages and its weird. I didn't even study, good luck for? Although I much appreciate them but I'd rather deserve them. Loser me backed out when every one of my friends are working hard, aiming high. Siggggggggggh.
Shall move my butt off to school now. Beats sitting around here!
Will update on my disatrous encounter with the paper later! (:
Sunday, June 22
An End to My Month's long of studyin
Now that school's starting, I can bid farewell to aimless roaming and studying outside.
Am gonna miss studying with Moon )': Although the joke's kinda always on me!
This is the first time I've made up my mind not to study for an Exam. Feels rather insecure and weird. Oh well, bound to fail anyway! Especially history! I've barely touched it and only did two countries for H2. HeeHee.
(Auntiesssssssssssssssssss in the making)
Am gonna miss studying with Moon )': Although the joke's kinda always on me!
This is the first time I've made up my mind not to study for an Exam. Feels rather insecure and weird. Oh well, bound to fail anyway! Especially history! I've barely touched it and only did two countries for H2. HeeHee.
(Auntiesssssssssssssssssss in the making)
Saturday, June 21
Every time I want to do an emo post, I stop and think for a very long while.
I am not happy.
I am not going to keep pretending that I am happy any more.
My heart hurts. We used to be best friends.
She listened to everything I siad.
She didn't use to ignore me.
She didn't use to pick on everything I do.
It bothers me, alot. I can hardly bring myself to concentrate. How tiring it is to try and pretend I'm ok. It's always so easy for me to tell others with such faith and conviction that "Things will always work themselves out" and when it comes to myself I can't even imagine.
Don't miss read my actions, Don't think of my as a rebelious teen.
I miss you.
If I did anything wrong, I'm very sorry.
I love you, Mummy.
(And I will text this to her since I can't seem to open my mouth)
I am not going to keep pretending that I am happy any more.
My heart hurts. We used to be best friends.
She listened to everything I siad.
She didn't use to ignore me.
She didn't use to pick on everything I do.
It bothers me, alot. I can hardly bring myself to concentrate. How tiring it is to try and pretend I'm ok. It's always so easy for me to tell others with such faith and conviction that "Things will always work themselves out" and when it comes to myself I can't even imagine.
Don't miss read my actions, Don't think of my as a rebelious teen.
I miss you.
If I did anything wrong, I'm very sorry.
I love you, Mummy.
(And I will text this to her since I can't seem to open my mouth)
Thursday, June 19
Hi!
Guess what!? I'm blogging from my new lappy! -GRINS-
I think this probably sounds silly... but I bought axioo (Singapore brand) 'cause I fell in love with its colour.! The specs are not really, really, vaio style good. For its price, it'll do just fine. Plus, I only have basic needs like doing my work and surfing the net. Heh heh, am very happy now(: Hope huisan can get hers tooo! Then we can have matching laptops!
OH! And I have something to look forward to now -Singapore flyer!
I can't install PC studio on this baby 'cause the programme is not compatible with vista. Which means I can't blog with pictures when using my laptop):
Meanwhile, I shall go off to bathe and leave baby here to charge.
Ikea breakfast tomorrow!
I think this probably sounds silly... but I bought axioo (Singapore brand) 'cause I fell in love with its colour.! The specs are not really, really, vaio style good. For its price, it'll do just fine. Plus, I only have basic needs like doing my work and surfing the net. Heh heh, am very happy now(: Hope huisan can get hers tooo! Then we can have matching laptops!
OH! And I have something to look forward to now -Singapore flyer!
I can't install PC studio on this baby 'cause the programme is not compatible with vista. Which means I can't blog with pictures when using my laptop):
Meanwhile, I shall go off to bathe and leave baby here to charge.
Ikea breakfast tomorrow!
Saturday, June 14
(tskkkkkkkkk, so blur)
One of the worst things that have happened to me this holidays is studying with moon.
I wanna get a laptop but I don't know if I should get a laptop. And if I get a laptop, do I get it from the PC show or do I get it from Ronnie at Sim Lim some other time? All thanks to my sister, I've waved goodbye to my macbook T.T Plus, NOBODY WANTS TO GO TO THE PC SHOW WITH ME!
I miss huisan lar, wonder when she's coming back...
Shall get some yu pian mi fen for late lunch later! Oh! Tomorrow's Father's day^^
And I'm getting enough of scandals already. ZzzzzZzZ
Since I'm dying NOT to touch my notes, let me share nightmare I had!
In my dream...
There was this thing called a 3rd intake (yep, on top of our PAE and JAE) And I got posted to **JC! THE HORROR! Although some of my classmates were posted there too, I couldn't help but cry (in the dream) No more waking up 6.20am! New school's too far away):
That kinda reminds me of when I first started going to TJ. Being the 2nd intake totally sucked and the distance was, comparatively, longer! Let's not even mention the uniform. But that dream kinda made me realise that I've actually grown to be very comfortable in TJ. Even if I get to go back to my PAE school, I'd probably won't. The school seemed to have grown on me already. (Although, yeah, some undesirable secondary school mates are still my school mate) That gave that bit of familiarity(:
Thinking about ChungCheng GC, well, I don't miss so much as the club. Rather, I think it was more of the people. After all, like the way a building doesn't make the school, it's people that matter most. Oh boy, I miss those times.
I think I've kinda made up my mind; I'm missing SYF next year.
Wednesday, June 11
Gym=No Gym
Gym was disappointing yesterday, but studying was good.
I love perfect competition! So easy!
Heh, Was studying at Macs with my scandal just now. Managed to finish Vietnam (phew)
Lately, I feel very out of it. MSN died. Facebook is boring.
Let me tell you more about my scandal, more like my self proclaimed boyfriend.
I caught him studying with Joanna at Macs the other day, right after he made a little confession that he likes someone in class. Try to see the link here.! And so I complain about my scandal having a scandal with someone else, which led up to the studying with my scandal today. Eh heh. (Just for the sake of it, I only have one scandal! Whatever Moon says, or tries to imply is all rubbish!)
After not getting into the exco, I shall be more proactive in school. Anything I can sign up or volunteer for?
Lol.
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I love perfect competition! So easy!
Heh, Was studying at Macs with my scandal just now. Managed to finish Vietnam (phew)
Lately, I feel very out of it. MSN died. Facebook is boring.
Let me tell you more about my scandal, more like my self proclaimed boyfriend.
I caught him studying with Joanna at Macs the other day, right after he made a little confession that he likes someone in class. Try to see the link here.! And so I complain about my scandal having a scandal with someone else, which led up to the studying with my scandal today. Eh heh. (Just for the sake of it, I only have one scandal! Whatever Moon says, or tries to imply is all rubbish!)
After not getting into the exco, I shall be more proactive in school. Anything I can sign up or volunteer for?
Lol.
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Get Forever21 stuff at cheaper rates!
Monday, June 9
Study Study Study
All I have been doing for the past few weeks were study, study, study. Quantity, but hardly quality.
I'm honestly dying for some fresh air. Some sport for me to go clear my head.
I'm thinking of:-
Hitting the gym
Cycling
Badminton
Swimming!
OK, LAZY PEOPLE! IT'S TIME TO MOVE OUR LAZY BODIES FOR SOME NICE SWEATY EXERCISE SO THAT WE CAN ALL HAVE A FRESH NEW CLEAR MIND FOR STUDYING LATER ON!
Am currently, trying my best to love econs, although history is still number one killerrrrrrrrr.
Rah.
I'm honestly dying for some fresh air. Some sport for me to go clear my head.
I'm thinking of:-
Hitting the gym
Cycling
Badminton
Swimming!
OK, LAZY PEOPLE! IT'S TIME TO MOVE OUR LAZY BODIES FOR SOME NICE SWEATY EXERCISE SO THAT WE CAN ALL HAVE A FRESH NEW CLEAR MIND FOR STUDYING LATER ON!
Am currently, trying my best to love econs, although history is still number one killerrrrrrrrr.
Rah.
Sunday, June 1
Once Again, I take time off to count my blessings
MaoQiang taking snapshots of us with my phone.
Ahah! Sweet revenge!
Look at my pretty donuts! Wayyyyy nicer than Joel's. Ooops. (At this point, I believe someone might tag saying Joel is his/her primary school friend; alot of people's primary school friend is in TJGuitar-.-)
I will button all my shirts all the way up from now onwards.
Honestly.
I am indeed very blessed.
Thank God there are these people in my life.
Huisan, for being my very best sister.
Yanting, for always bringing on the laughter.
HuiShan, for always being there to listen.
MaoQiang, for just the person you are.
YuQian, for remembering what I gave you years ago.
Cheryl, for always giving me the best advice.
Moon, sigh, for being the bestest best senior ever.
YiJie, Jade and those who still bother to pop by my blog.
Mr Ho, for being the kind and patient teacher he is.
Charlene Ng! for the best chit chat ever!
I miss alot of you guys ): It's getting harder and harder to just meet and catch up. (JADE! YOU NEVER REPLY MY MSG!) My notes are slowly burying me underneath. NDP just added some weight on to it. Luckily next two weeks got no training.!
And there's still my most valued friend who would most likely not see this. But I'm so grateful for all the compromise she had to make, and all her time wasted hearing me whine~!
I AM NOW A VERY VERY HAPPY PERSON, TAKING EACH DAY AT A TIME :D