There's a reason why people don't stay who they are

Tuesday, April 29

SUDDENLY THE WORLD STARTS SPINNING A LITTLE SLOWER.

With all the tests and concert over, I suddenly feel very freeee!

Was initailly looking forward to the new song for Mardi Gras, turns out the new song wasn't at all new. My concert piece in Sec3: Can't help falling in love. Oh well, at least I'm doing guitar 1 now(flashback: recalls me feeling very very bitter with Mr Raj for making me play guitar 2). Now I'm pretty thankful for having learnt guitar 2, it was more interesting than the melody.! Goes to show that conductor always knows better (something I've really learnt and valued from my childish and stubborn past). Sigh.

I'm ahead in homework! I have Friday's work more than half done. PI down to the last few nitty gritty details. Got a decent 11/25 for Econs test :D

Time to "fight off" the contenders for guitar exco, my insecurities and the tutor who constantly threatens and demoralises my pursuit for presidency!

Tough competition okay!

Saturday, April 26

Lethargic

I'm going to sleep to my heart's content because................

CONCERT IS OVER!

Yay, and there's still Mardi Gras.

Friday, April 25

Simply put,

The objective of my life now is to survive each day without feeling worse than the previous.

Yes, it is that bad.

Friday, April 18

FRIDAYS! ^^

Lately, I've been super obsessed with the colour red and I realise, I'm turning into a weirdo! How): like that nobody will want to be my boyfriend already lah! (I'm kinda in a bimbo mood, so you can ignore that)

Share with you'l something today:

While walking to LT 2 for Econs lecture today, Mr H walked up to me and said

"Vanessa, I need your number." (In case you're wondering, I'm the very responsible Econs rep)

Gasps! "Don't want!" and bursts out laughing.

As he takes out his handphone, the rest of the class approaches.

"OMG! Is he asking for your number?"

"No, I need your number!" Starts to panic and get very gan cheong.

Insert laughter, laughter, non stop laughter.

Mr J walks by and he hears,

"Mr J! Mr H asking for Vanessa's number!"

Looks amazed and says "Wake up leh" to Mr H and walks away.

"No, I need really need your number!" Mixed in with a little frustration.

Mr H starts chasing people into the LT "Faster go in! Lecture start already!"

Stopped laughing and I said "98..."

:O (copies shocked expressions)

Repeats "Faster go in! Lecture start already!"

"Ok, we leave you two here with to carry on with your hanky panky"

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That was kinda amusing today.! Ha Ha.

Now, you know why I say I'm turning into a weirdo!

S.a.v.e. M.e.!

Tuesday, April 15

I'm feeling alot alot better now! ^^

Met up with Elin Baby and Camilla yesterday. Although they like to say my uniform very ugly (and well, it ain't very nice) but I still love them! Heh.

Bazaar on Saturday! T'was raining mad cows and the road into school was flooded. But nonetheless it wasn't a wasted trip. The prices are seriously exorbitant. I caught up with HuiShan and Jian An! Boy Oh Boy, I do miss chatting with HuiShan alot.

The very concert tee which I happily wore to bazaar.

Concert is coming.!

It was a pure coincidence that we both happened to wear yellow-banana tops.

It felt half satisfying and half frustrating to have someone come right up to me, put her finger on my problem and pin point it straight into my face. That woke me up like a tight slap across my face.

I would never understand why I could smile myself silly sometimes and feel like I'm the happiest girl alive and yet forget all about it and sink into self pity. Shall take a moment or two to express my deepest appreciation for these people: YuQian, Elin, Yanting, MaoQiang, HuiShan and Cheryl. Thanks for making my day or attempting to make my day!

OH. MY CONCERT TICKETS SOLD OUT ALREADYYYYYYYYYY! Hiak Hiak Hiak.

Thursday, April 10

And I was supposed to be studying Econs. Damn it.

60 x optical zooooooooooooom!

At times like this, I'm so glad for my baby Elin! :D Just when I thought "so much for friendship" -Grins-

But right now, Im still trying to get over the fact that A is gay (seriously homosexual). And the revolting things on his livejournal.

A might as well document his sex life.

The concert tee is super nice, I'm gonna wear it tmr!

Those who couldn't even be bothered to reply my invitation to my first ever formal formal concert, I seriously don't want to talk to you guys anymore. At least not in the near future. Petty or whatever but you've seriously gotta know how much the concert is driving me insane (I cry every single day) and how much effort I've put in ok.

Bye world.!

Wednesday, April 9

This wave of depression kinda makes me feel suicidal. I feel so miserably smothered that I can't seem to smile.

Yeah, I know everyone is tired. But this is mental torture. Trying so hard to be something I'm not and will never be.

Ahpa's birthday!

That left me kinda happy for awhile.

And this too, surprisingly.

I'm considering dropping to h1 history.

Oh well, so much for new year resolutions.

Tickets for TJGuitar concert, 26 April. Come to me. I'm putting our friendship on the line. Come or say bye bye to me forever. Not like it makes a difference since I've got no friends now anyway):

Ok, Vanessa, shut up.

Sunday, April 6

(The Other Pages from the Magazine!)

And now, it's lying somewhere rotting ):

Funan IT show was a disater. I don't think I'd ever want to work in the near future. HOW COME ALWAYS SCOLD ME?

During the short duration that my comp crashed, so much seemed to have happened. It seems too late to show concern but too inhuman to ignore. Take care, take heart.

Sometimes all I'm looking for is a word of encouragement. Can I have that please?