Saturday, September 29

School's Out ?

Feels a little like it. Everyone says this period would be the most enjoyable time in Secondary School. It would be. Heh, never mind.

Everyone's posting their L1R5. I think should, being the only person in the whole level who is satisfied with it. Damn Pai Seh can!

English ---------------------------------------------------B3

Chinese --------------------------------------------------A1

H.Chinese ------------------------------------------------C5

Maths.E -------------------------------------------------A2

Maths.A -------------------------------------------------A1

Chemistry -----------------------------------------------A1

Physics --------------------------------------------------D7

C.Humanities --------------------------------------------B4

Geography ----------------------------------------------C5

I think its TJC. ByeBye NanYang, and everyone else who's heading there to play without me): Can I apply to TJ but go NY for 1st Month? Heh, anyway not planning to go everyday also. Once a week maybe.

But I always screw up major exams. (PSLE*&^%$#@!)

More intense studying.

Good luck, take more care.

Sunday, September 23

Finally dragged my lazy bones over to edit my links.

I think it would take another year if I want to change my skin.

The Fan Ti chinese is really giving me a headache.

Yanting! I cannot find the thing to change it back to english! ):

I believe everyone has read about debriefs everywhere else. still, I want to complain! Why is the school locking us up in the stuffy Grand Audi under this sweltering heat? It almost killed me while walking out for breakfast. And it rains only today, on a beautiful Sunday. Thank God, there's no debriefs for O's.

"Rumours, they spread like fire in a forest. It only gets stronger with each passing tree."

Yay, quoted from my disappointing english essay.

Thursday, September 13

I have just come to a realisation that Olevels are about 40 days away.

40 days is 2 months.

2 months is 8 weeks.

Aiyahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Still.Got.Time.

Right now, Im just dying to go catch a movie and for tomorrow to go by.

Prelims is a total scam. Through and true.

Saturday, September 8

Sorry

Sorry seems to be the hardest word, and the least sincere.

Beg your pardon?

Don't think so?

What's that again?

Sorry, no cure.

Sorry doesn't appeal to me. It doesn't possess power strong enough to undo wrongs or make things right. It becomes a routine word that you say after you realise you'd done something wrong or when other realise you'd done something wrong. Can it convey any hint of sincerity, tinge of remorse or pinch of guilt?

I don't like apologies in the verbal form. I'd rather have something tangible. Anyway, don't they always say actions speak louder than words? Who could tell how much depth your sorry possessed. It may come from the bottom of your heart but it never fails to lose its way into people's hearts. It lacks in emotional length and physical width, can never fill in for the space left after every wrong.

I don't like it when people apologise profusely.

I don't like it when I apologise profusely.

Some how it feels as though no amount of the wicked S word can ever win any forgiveness. With each increasing number of it, is just the pressure to forgive. But, most of the time, sorry is the only word we can all find to say in that desperate attempt to make our remorse known. I say a lot of sorry-s when I mean it because I hope to deliver something but I hate that because it makes me feel superficial. I don't believe in quantity and the fact that it requires some extent of cajoling. People are made in such a way that they hope to get what they want, so its obviously sour when you have to give in, especially when you have to drop your pride.

Yes, kinda annoys me that you flare up so easily and so stubbornly refuse to give in.

I don't fancy too much compromises.

Don't get me wrong. Its not a petty act nor am I unforgiving. Just that exploiting Sorry till it makes no impact is depressing. I would like to mean it every time I say it and not just to conform to your missy wishes. You're not a princess everywhere, you know.

So don't say sorry. I cringe when I hear it.

It doesn't exchange forgiveness. Only friendship and understanding does.

So you don't need to say sorry.

Let people feel it.
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Sorry(oops!) . Had to rant in face of metals and the intensity.

Friday, September 7

Haven't been online for a long time.

All that studying and teevee has completely detached me with the internet which means, zero cyber life.

And it is not the only thing that I got distanced with.

I really miss talking to certain peole, cause now they all feel like strangers to me. If you realise you no longer know what I just did or something along those lines, I think its about time for some catching up. It would also be very nice for someone to offer to help me with Maths.A/Physics (: Giving up really is the easier way out, beats getting a single digit score.

I know as much about China as everyone else, or perhaps lesser. I only read the textbook, so I don't like it when Mrs Tan says I know my China well. More exam stress, as if peer pressure was nothing.
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Staring out at the vast expanse of water with a heavy heart, he felt it sigh. The white sandy beach stretched out beneath his feet, lining the area enclosing him with numerous minute grains of sand. The great area did not bind him. His denial confined him. All the pent up emotions ridding the waves in his heart. Waves gently breaking on the beach was a stark contrast to the storm raging inside. Words broke the dam of his mouth and came gushing out like water of a floodgate. They came out louder than he expected, piercing the surronding silence.

Now, he could feel the wind on his shoulders. Raindrops started to land on his cheeks. He closed his eyes to soak in the melancholy of the weather. He closed his mind to soak into the state of solitude.
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Kinda reminds me, my coasts is still not done!

Monday, September 3

CRAMMING NONSENSE/ JALAN JALAN @ IKTP!

Dead comfortable. Comfortable, dead.

Because studying gets a little too suffocating sometimes.

I really like studying at ikea. And planning my future office :)

Now would be a good time to date me for a movie.

I swear the books are getting to me.

(Makes a note to burn textbooks after Os)

JADEEEEEEEEEE! Gym!

Gains and losses.
Weight and brain cells.

"No, I never forget."

Now, for motivation and after Os.