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Wednesday, March 30
scared.
i was reading sumone's blog and i cried.
yeah. u might not noe its eu but yar. i got so so damn scared. i dhun want eu to leave us though i noe its just a matter of tym.i dhun noe wad u have been thru but i caan feel dhat its relleh relleh serious. we are here for eu kkaes. so is he. i will neva switch off my fone from today onwards until eu are okae. i will make myself available for u kkaes x). dhun give up on him kkaes. i noe its tough hanging on. but why choose to go away? wad chung cheng is now is all eur effort and hard workk. dhun go away. i noe this kinda feeling of sumone leaving. i am still affected by it just dhat in a positive way now. not only will it hurt ppl around eu but oso Him. dhun disappoint him. talk it over with sumone. anyone. just dhun let go. please.
ii love eu loadds gal. <3
yeah. u might not noe its eu but yar. i got so so damn scared. i dhun want eu to leave us though i noe its just a matter of tym.i dhun noe wad u have been thru but i caan feel dhat its relleh relleh serious. we are here for eu kkaes. so is he. i will neva switch off my fone from today onwards until eu are okae. i will make myself available for u kkaes x). dhun give up on him kkaes. i noe its tough hanging on. but why choose to go away? wad chung cheng is now is all eur effort and hard workk. dhun go away. i noe this kinda feeling of sumone leaving. i am still affected by it just dhat in a positive way now. not only will it hurt ppl around eu but oso Him. dhun disappoint him. talk it over with sumone. anyone. just dhun let go. please.
ii love eu loadds gal. <3
roti prata.
roti prata. yea. dhats my new name. x)
alegebra is killing me. oh man i totally dhun understand. still have lyk sixty plus questions. my god. dhen science i oso dun get anything lorhh. still so boring. * yawns.
mondayy had cg in school. yay! ying wei and chen yan joined us! * applause. so glad to have them around. chung cheng is growing. whee.
todayy everyone ran down to the stall to grab the talentime tickets. had alot of people. luckily i managed to get my tickets cause the tickets were very limited.behind caarn get lorhh. got ppl try to cut in lorhh. so damn bu yao lian. lucky is got scolded dhen so in the end oso had to queue. haha. lame. dhen had guitar larhh. having rehearsal on sat. whee. so cool. i caarn wait. but i dhun think i am prepared for it. kinda nervous. okae, i am very nervous. today was so damn lan. gasper's face was damn black. my finger hurts now. i caarn even type properly. the strings very hard to press mah.
tests are cuming up again. wah seh. sianx. dhen so many projects neva do yet. saded. sick school.
alegebra is killing me. oh man i totally dhun understand. still have lyk sixty plus questions. my god. dhen science i oso dun get anything lorhh. still so boring. * yawns.
mondayy had cg in school. yay! ying wei and chen yan joined us! * applause. so glad to have them around. chung cheng is growing. whee.
todayy everyone ran down to the stall to grab the talentime tickets. had alot of people. luckily i managed to get my tickets cause the tickets were very limited.behind caarn get lorhh. got ppl try to cut in lorhh. so damn bu yao lian. lucky is got scolded dhen so in the end oso had to queue. haha. lame. dhen had guitar larhh. having rehearsal on sat. whee. so cool. i caarn wait. but i dhun think i am prepared for it. kinda nervous. okae, i am very nervous. today was so damn lan. gasper's face was damn black. my finger hurts now. i caarn even type properly. the strings very hard to press mah.
tests are cuming up again. wah seh. sianx. dhen so many projects neva do yet. saded. sick school.
Monday, March 28
converts!
converts! converts!
oh man. this is so damn cool. [will make this short. gotta cheong project. oopx.] chung cheng gladly welcome two new people into our beeeeeg famiilee. chen yan and ying wei. i carn believe it. my classmate. oh man. so cool. the angels are rejoicing!its been so long ever since i saw sumone near me convert.as in closer people. alvin accepted christ. i was relleh happy. but dhen he dowan. its okae. this tym i am so so much more excited!! service rawked. sermon was okae. maybe i expected more out of the whole service or sumthing. but it wasnt very as touching and powerful as the other special services. oh well. maybe its just me. i am now enjoying the cd left over from yesterday. its cool.
oh yea. maybel might be transfering skool. though i dun quite support the idea but i dun noe wad kinda problems she is facing now. but i believe if it is relleh very tough for her dhen she shud transfer. mabel. no matter wad u choose to do, we will zhi chi u one. cheer up kkaes.
oh yes. my new name is roti prata.
oh man. this is so damn cool. [will make this short. gotta cheong project. oopx.] chung cheng gladly welcome two new people into our beeeeeg famiilee. chen yan and ying wei. i carn believe it. my classmate. oh man. so cool. the angels are rejoicing!its been so long ever since i saw sumone near me convert.as in closer people. alvin accepted christ. i was relleh happy. but dhen he dowan. its okae. this tym i am so so much more excited!! service rawked. sermon was okae. maybe i expected more out of the whole service or sumthing. but it wasnt very as touching and powerful as the other special services. oh well. maybe its just me. i am now enjoying the cd left over from yesterday. its cool.
oh yea. maybel might be transfering skool. though i dun quite support the idea but i dun noe wad kinda problems she is facing now. but i believe if it is relleh very tough for her dhen she shud transfer. mabel. no matter wad u choose to do, we will zhi chi u one. cheer up kkaes.
oh yes. my new name is roti prata.
Saturday, March 26
contented
contentment.
we shud be glad with wad we have now. so i should not be cmplaining any more.
have not relleh been in the mood of inviting ppl. hardly asked anyone. even my sis. i just slipped the unvitation into her cupboard. obviously she did not see it. or pretend dhat she didnt. i am excited about easter. but just feel abit lifeless and tired.
so bcos i feel tired and lifeless. i haven been feeling too well. i feel dao-ish. dhun put in effort in wad i do. sum ppl say slack. wadeva. abit siao liao. happy and sad all of a suddenly lykdat. funny. and i have been thinking too much. yes yes. i am fine now.
went dee jee house for project todae. her house is beeeeeg. her dog is scary. it was fun. and i realised dhat i needed peace and quiet. dhen we went over to east point. (i was supposed to be at parkway?) wanted to play at arcade. but no tapz card. i sooo sooo sooo wanted to play sooo badly. ARCADE ANYONE? haiish. dhen i "left for parkway". not relleh for parkway larhh. just darn tired. ended up walking home from parkway with my damn stupid guitar. woke up so early man. relleh tired until got damn frustrated when i found out that they all left after i reached dhere.was super bushuang when i reached home. so kena scolded by lao ma again. not sure if i can go tmr. but since i dun have any visitors, so i dun relleh feel lyk going. but its easter. i dhun think i can find an excuse to go out. we shall see dhen. kinda lost hope liao. even dhose more possible one oso not coming lerh. i believe in god.
f l y a w a y .
we shud be glad with wad we have now. so i should not be cmplaining any more.
have not relleh been in the mood of inviting ppl. hardly asked anyone. even my sis. i just slipped the unvitation into her cupboard. obviously she did not see it. or pretend dhat she didnt. i am excited about easter. but just feel abit lifeless and tired.
so bcos i feel tired and lifeless. i haven been feeling too well. i feel dao-ish. dhun put in effort in wad i do. sum ppl say slack. wadeva. abit siao liao. happy and sad all of a suddenly lykdat. funny. and i have been thinking too much. yes yes. i am fine now.
went dee jee house for project todae. her house is beeeeeg. her dog is scary. it was fun. and i realised dhat i needed peace and quiet. dhen we went over to east point. (i was supposed to be at parkway?) wanted to play at arcade. but no tapz card. i sooo sooo sooo wanted to play sooo badly. ARCADE ANYONE? haiish. dhen i "left for parkway". not relleh for parkway larhh. just darn tired. ended up walking home from parkway with my damn stupid guitar. woke up so early man. relleh tired until got damn frustrated when i found out that they all left after i reached dhere.was super bushuang when i reached home. so kena scolded by lao ma again. not sure if i can go tmr. but since i dun have any visitors, so i dun relleh feel lyk going. but its easter. i dhun think i can find an excuse to go out. we shall see dhen. kinda lost hope liao. even dhose more possible one oso not coming lerh. i believe in god.
f l y a w a y .
Friday, March 25
run
run.
25th track thing. lalala. last year combine lerh. so our school was quite okae. but dunman was lyk so damn ping lorh. so li hai lorh. so was quite nice bah. the weather damn good today. no sun. yes, no sun no tanning. hmphx.
so went home with xing xian and qin yi. she started scolding me again. even when i said nuthing to her at all. why is she so bias? why must she always do this? it is so unfair. i dun mind washing my own clothes or wadeva. but its not fair if u only make me do it. dun dhey have to do as well? why is it dhat u dun mind doing things for dhem and i have to do everything myself?why is it dhat i talk to you nicely even after a hard day and u must scream at me?why is it dhat even if my brudder screams at u, u dhun mind?
why must u make my life difficult? i try to get good grades, try to stay awake in class. try to study just bcos i didnt wana disappoint u. i noe u dun pin too much hope on my brudder or sista. i try to touch the book and even bear with it. seriously, i rather just flunk everything and dun care. it doesnt matter to me at all. it makes no difference.
all school stuff i dhun dare to get money from u. i pay everything myself. wad do dhey do. stick out their hands and u just give them. u let sis go church. u dun let me go. u make me pay for my church camps. do u noe how much the school takes from us? so many class tees. just bcos the furst one is black and white, u forced the whole class to buy another one. i have to pay myself. my edusave no money. i pay all the outstanding. my books. i pay half. its my. u still expect me to share it. u say u got fianacial problems. no moey. fine.i dhun get from u. i wanted to go perth in p5 and xiamen last year. no money i dhun dare ask. when i tell u i could have went, u say why neva go? go and take experience oso an wad? u wun even let me lorh.u find stupid excuses to stop me from going. fine i go sign up for JB camp and i dhun tell u i going. i can go and buy all sorts of junk outside any way, u dhun care at all. i am gonna spend it all on school and stuff anyway. it was meant to be saved. now wad. u still "borrow" money from me leh. wadeva. u have no money.
u are making my life miserable. u make me fell lyk disappearing. just vanish. u might not even care.
yeah. i am betta now. after shouting it out? i just feel much betta now. maybe i was guo fen and exaggerating? but all i said was true.
i wana run a w a y from euu
25th track thing. lalala. last year combine lerh. so our school was quite okae. but dunman was lyk so damn ping lorh. so li hai lorh. so was quite nice bah. the weather damn good today. no sun. yes, no sun no tanning. hmphx.
so went home with xing xian and qin yi. she started scolding me again. even when i said nuthing to her at all. why is she so bias? why must she always do this? it is so unfair. i dun mind washing my own clothes or wadeva. but its not fair if u only make me do it. dun dhey have to do as well? why is it dhat u dun mind doing things for dhem and i have to do everything myself?why is it dhat i talk to you nicely even after a hard day and u must scream at me?why is it dhat even if my brudder screams at u, u dhun mind?
why must u make my life difficult? i try to get good grades, try to stay awake in class. try to study just bcos i didnt wana disappoint u. i noe u dun pin too much hope on my brudder or sista. i try to touch the book and even bear with it. seriously, i rather just flunk everything and dun care. it doesnt matter to me at all. it makes no difference.
all school stuff i dhun dare to get money from u. i pay everything myself. wad do dhey do. stick out their hands and u just give them. u let sis go church. u dun let me go. u make me pay for my church camps. do u noe how much the school takes from us? so many class tees. just bcos the furst one is black and white, u forced the whole class to buy another one. i have to pay myself. my edusave no money. i pay all the outstanding. my books. i pay half. its my. u still expect me to share it. u say u got fianacial problems. no moey. fine.i dhun get from u. i wanted to go perth in p5 and xiamen last year. no money i dhun dare ask. when i tell u i could have went, u say why neva go? go and take experience oso an wad? u wun even let me lorh.u find stupid excuses to stop me from going. fine i go sign up for JB camp and i dhun tell u i going. i can go and buy all sorts of junk outside any way, u dhun care at all. i am gonna spend it all on school and stuff anyway. it was meant to be saved. now wad. u still "borrow" money from me leh. wadeva. u have no money.
u are making my life miserable. u make me fell lyk disappearing. just vanish. u might not even care.
yeah. i am betta now. after shouting it out? i just feel much betta now. maybe i was guo fen and exaggerating? but all i said was true.
i wana run a w a y from euu
Wednesday, March 23
ahem
whheeeeeee.
lalala. school reopen le. whee.
had guitar and cg today. i can say guitar was the funnest ever. so far. yeah. the instructor damn fuuny. dhen kena CHASED OUT by the stupid OM say is the principal say one. dhen he keep walking by to stare at us. hmm. so dhey attempted to lock the doors and pull the curtain. yeah so didnt do dhat larh. next time guitar gotta start earlier and end earlier le. cos dhun let us stay in the new block past 5.30 so everyone has to evacuate.
HAPPY BURFDAE to sharon.
went to see inter class basketball for the sec threes. whoa. dhey play de tym so cool so shuai lorh. dhey are all char bors okae. so cool lorh. so shern was playing as well. dhen she so... ou xiang larhh. she shud be bballer instead of choir char bor. heheh. dhen dhe charlene from ly oso so shuai lorh. so cool man.
school has proven to be unbearable for me. neva felt awake for any lesson so far. i shall buck up.
dhen my mum siao one lorhh for two days show me attitude le lorhh. black face. hmphs. sometimes i just feel lyk disappearing for a while before i reappear. can't stand it.
d ii s s o l v e ii n t o t h e w a t e r
lalala. school reopen le. whee.
had guitar and cg today. i can say guitar was the funnest ever. so far. yeah. the instructor damn fuuny. dhen kena CHASED OUT by the stupid OM say is the principal say one. dhen he keep walking by to stare at us. hmm. so dhey attempted to lock the doors and pull the curtain. yeah so didnt do dhat larh. next time guitar gotta start earlier and end earlier le. cos dhun let us stay in the new block past 5.30 so everyone has to evacuate.
HAPPY BURFDAE to sharon.
went to see inter class basketball for the sec threes. whoa. dhey play de tym so cool so shuai lorh. dhey are all char bors okae. so cool lorh. so shern was playing as well. dhen she so... ou xiang larhh. she shud be bballer instead of choir char bor. heheh. dhen dhe charlene from ly oso so shuai lorh. so cool man.
school has proven to be unbearable for me. neva felt awake for any lesson so far. i shall buck up.
dhen my mum siao one lorhh for two days show me attitude le lorhh. black face. hmphs. sometimes i just feel lyk disappearing for a while before i reappear. can't stand it.
d ii s s o l v e ii n t o t h e w a t e r
Monday, March 21
hmm.
hehehx.
hmm. went for service yesterday. almost couldn't go so i was kinda almost late. service was cool larhh. as usual. lalala. easter ish next week!!!! whee. altar call was about not keeping grudges and letting god use u. so i guess it minstered to me. yeah. i had some people whom i relleh could not forgive. now i have let go. i can dhun forget but i have to forgive. its sort of makes me feel betta.
after service we were sitting dhere toking aboout RC. dhen got policeman come to chase us away. i sit until my foot pain. my shoe was erm. yar. abit lost for words now. dhen had a great tym of fellowship. shern learnt a new song. and she was entertain us with it. lalala. at least its betta dhen hsiao en's. oopx. dhen celebrated carinna's burfday and shern's spiritual burfday. dhey got cake. and i got chlorine water for my burfday. whoa. haha. being dumb here. and i shall avoid my shepherd. she stepped on me. she lyk the only person who step on me. and i am lyk the only person she steps on. hmm. guess dhats y she is my shepherd.
just came back from movie with my lao ma. watched a series of unfortunate events. she found it boring but i thinkk it was cool. dhen the baby very cute. it was nice larhh.
l o s t f o r w o r d s
hmm. went for service yesterday. almost couldn't go so i was kinda almost late. service was cool larhh. as usual. lalala. easter ish next week!!!! whee. altar call was about not keeping grudges and letting god use u. so i guess it minstered to me. yeah. i had some people whom i relleh could not forgive. now i have let go. i can dhun forget but i have to forgive. its sort of makes me feel betta.
after service we were sitting dhere toking aboout RC. dhen got policeman come to chase us away. i sit until my foot pain. my shoe was erm. yar. abit lost for words now. dhen had a great tym of fellowship. shern learnt a new song. and she was entertain us with it. lalala. at least its betta dhen hsiao en's. oopx. dhen celebrated carinna's burfday and shern's spiritual burfday. dhey got cake. and i got chlorine water for my burfday. whoa. haha. being dumb here. and i shall avoid my shepherd. she stepped on me. she lyk the only person who step on me. and i am lyk the only person she steps on. hmm. guess dhats y she is my shepherd.
just came back from movie with my lao ma. watched a series of unfortunate events. she found it boring but i thinkk it was cool. dhen the baby very cute. it was nice larhh.
l o s t f o r w o r d s
Saturday, March 19
dumb me
dumb me.
hahah. jux realised dhat i posted about the same things twice. hahah. fine.
tuesdayy was damn tiring for me larhh. had dance early in the morning followed closely by guitar.and smart lil me actually forgot to bring my fone out. lalala. so sorriie to dhose dhat i supposedly daoed. so sorry bout dhat. he finally paiied the dance lerhh. quite cool bah. but only a bit larh. so went off for guitar. was praised. hahahah. did quite okay bah. tho got sum parts kinda not good.not so confident about it. guess we will improve bah.
wednesdayy had guitar again. got scolded lyk siao lorhh. only our section sum more. wadeva. i noe its bad.had east event at pasir ris. didn't get to go cos of guitar. nebamind. anewayy i could go for bbq. so i went home after guitar to dump my guitar dhere before i left.took sum tym larhh. okey. alot of tym before i went out. but i was stil one of the earlier ones. dhen went out a couple of tyms to fetch lestari and shern's visitor. walk quite alot. who ask chialing hse soo ulu. so the rest of them came. u noe wad? they stink. *phew. i am clean okiex. dhen did sum intro thingiie. dhen started cooking. it was rather fun larhh. but i think it lacks interaction. cos everyone sit dhere watch tv and eat. lala. it was fun.went home with pherdie and chen yan. shern's visitor. she is my classmate's cousin!!! so cool.they knew but no one told me. hmmm. was sharing sum scary stuff?? kae larh. reached home at elevn plus bah. could not relleh sleep. quite late dhen sleep bah. woke up so early the next dayy to rush down to school for dance.
dance was cool man. though my leg is now seriously injured.even siting down oso pain caans. kinda bi myself to carry on. but i caan take it larh. anewae. i am going to have a long break from dance so i can recover. yup. he pied more of the dance. so its cool but bu zheng qi. saded larhh. hope we dhun disgrace ourselves dhat dayy. lalala.
p a s s ii o n ii n w a d ii b e l ii e v e
hahah. jux realised dhat i posted about the same things twice. hahah. fine.
tuesdayy was damn tiring for me larhh. had dance early in the morning followed closely by guitar.and smart lil me actually forgot to bring my fone out. lalala. so sorriie to dhose dhat i supposedly daoed. so sorry bout dhat. he finally paiied the dance lerhh. quite cool bah. but only a bit larh. so went off for guitar. was praised. hahahah. did quite okay bah. tho got sum parts kinda not good.not so confident about it. guess we will improve bah.
wednesdayy had guitar again. got scolded lyk siao lorhh. only our section sum more. wadeva. i noe its bad.had east event at pasir ris. didn't get to go cos of guitar. nebamind. anewayy i could go for bbq. so i went home after guitar to dump my guitar dhere before i left.took sum tym larhh. okey. alot of tym before i went out. but i was stil one of the earlier ones. dhen went out a couple of tyms to fetch lestari and shern's visitor. walk quite alot. who ask chialing hse soo ulu. so the rest of them came. u noe wad? they stink. *phew. i am clean okiex. dhen did sum intro thingiie. dhen started cooking. it was rather fun larhh. but i think it lacks interaction. cos everyone sit dhere watch tv and eat. lala. it was fun.went home with pherdie and chen yan. shern's visitor. she is my classmate's cousin!!! so cool.they knew but no one told me. hmmm. was sharing sum scary stuff?? kae larh. reached home at elevn plus bah. could not relleh sleep. quite late dhen sleep bah. woke up so early the next dayy to rush down to school for dance.
dance was cool man. though my leg is now seriously injured.even siting down oso pain caans. kinda bi myself to carry on. but i caan take it larh. anewae. i am going to have a long break from dance so i can recover. yup. he pied more of the dance. so its cool but bu zheng qi. saded larhh. hope we dhun disgrace ourselves dhat dayy. lalala.
p a s s ii o n ii n w a d ii b e l ii e v e
Tuesday, March 15
haart ache.
oww. my haart hurts.
i jux dropped 50 bucks todae. lalala. forgetit. trying to earn back now.
saturdayy. i went for scrabble. i lost all four rounds. so pai seh. but met a few interesting ppl. haha. dhen i went to meet my mum to watch movie. in the end could not get the tickets so went to tour the place. brought back sum childhood memories. dhose scarrie ones. dhen went home le. watched sum scary stuff and didn't dare to sleep. so i make my mum sit in the room with me. hahaha.
today. i woke up at lyk 6 plus to go to school. haiish. so on the way i lost my money. fine. had guitar self practise todayy. play until so sian ler. dhen sumone said can play sumthing else or not?? dhen this guy started to play twinkle twinkle lil star.
saw the dentist was so damn scared can. i hate seeing dentists. *shivers. got to go now. still gotta wake up early tmr. not lyk chialing.
i jux dropped 50 bucks todae. lalala. forgetit. trying to earn back now.
saturdayy. i went for scrabble. i lost all four rounds. so pai seh. but met a few interesting ppl. haha. dhen i went to meet my mum to watch movie. in the end could not get the tickets so went to tour the place. brought back sum childhood memories. dhose scarrie ones. dhen went home le. watched sum scary stuff and didn't dare to sleep. so i make my mum sit in the room with me. hahaha.
today. i woke up at lyk 6 plus to go to school. haiish. so on the way i lost my money. fine. had guitar self practise todayy. play until so sian ler. dhen sumone said can play sumthing else or not?? dhen this guy started to play twinkle twinkle lil star.
saw the dentist was so damn scared can. i hate seeing dentists. *shivers. got to go now. still gotta wake up early tmr. not lyk chialing.
scrabble
heex. went for scrabble on sat.
it was cool nehx. furst round was damn cool lorhh. four chung cheng ppl sit together. which means we have to zi xiang can sha. yea. and thedora slaughtered me. i lost. and i lost all the other three rounds as well. be i got to noe so many cool peeps. <3 one gal was from guitar oso. dhen she oso plae furst guitar. so coool man.
dhen went to meet lao ma zi to watch movie. but didn't in the end cos couldn't get the tickets. sorrie lao ma. shud not have made u wait sooo long. but it ended late.
mondyy. a cute lil gerr was on her way to school. at the bus stop, she put her hand into her pocket.... AAARRRRGGGHHH! where's her money?? her 50 bucks. her allwance plus savings. kkae. dhat cute ger was me. could not find my money le. lalala. just as wad chialing said i am not sad. seriously, i dhun really feel sad. some how it jux doesn matter so much to me any more.
oh well. had guitar. dhen after dhat i just de zui another teacher. yan lao shi. i was poking ambert khoo photo outside the general office. dhen she walked by dhen she saw. ooops. dhen she said. "zhe li you yi ge xian cheng de, ni yao bu yao chuo? bu ran lecture hall one ye you. yao wo dai ni qu ma? yao fa xie ye bu shi zhe yang fa xie. xiao fu chuan dao zhe yang. ailin! ni mei you..." so i stood dhere smiling lyk an idiot.fine. by the end of this year all the teachers are gonna hate me.
l a l a l a
it was cool nehx. furst round was damn cool lorhh. four chung cheng ppl sit together. which means we have to zi xiang can sha. yea. and thedora slaughtered me. i lost. and i lost all the other three rounds as well. be i got to noe so many cool peeps. <3 one gal was from guitar oso. dhen she oso plae furst guitar. so coool man.
dhen went to meet lao ma zi to watch movie. but didn't in the end cos couldn't get the tickets. sorrie lao ma. shud not have made u wait sooo long. but it ended late.
mondyy. a cute lil gerr was on her way to school. at the bus stop, she put her hand into her pocket.... AAARRRRGGGHHH! where's her money?? her 50 bucks. her allwance plus savings. kkae. dhat cute ger was me. could not find my money le. lalala. just as wad chialing said i am not sad. seriously, i dhun really feel sad. some how it jux doesn matter so much to me any more.
oh well. had guitar. dhen after dhat i just de zui another teacher. yan lao shi. i was poking ambert khoo photo outside the general office. dhen she walked by dhen she saw. ooops. dhen she said. "zhe li you yi ge xian cheng de, ni yao bu yao chuo? bu ran lecture hall one ye you. yao wo dai ni qu ma? yao fa xie ye bu shi zhe yang fa xie. xiao fu chuan dao zhe yang. ailin! ni mei you..." so i stood dhere smiling lyk an idiot.fine. by the end of this year all the teachers are gonna hate me.
l a l a l a
Saturday, March 12
class tee suckks
class tee suckks.
no offence to yong kee. the drawing was nice but the whole tee wasn't. its sort of equal to buying a plain black shirt for twelve bucks. yes i felt lyk throwing money but not to dhis extent. shud have voted against it. wadds done is done larh
damn cool. brother ish gone till mondayy. wheee. i am free. my hoildayy is so damn packed. lets look at my schedule.
mondayy. dental appointment and guitar.
tuesdayy. dance and guitar half an hour later.
wednesday. guitar. and bbq at serangoon two hours later. am gonna be late again.
thursdayy. dance and going to throw money!!!
friidayy. my dayy off. dhun expect me to go any where.
saturdayy. my tym with god.
sundayy. my tym with the piles of hw.
see i am not free. lalala.
my mum got a new fone for jux eight buckks. she traded in my old fone. *sobx i miss it. neva mind. the fone is cool jux dhat no gprs and infared.its damn cool. yea. eight bucks. facinating. dhen we went around walk walk. did sum dumb stuff. i am not gonna sayy wadd. cute larh. my mum is cute. haha.
yea. tmr got scrabble. gotta wake up early again. but its a sat. and i gotta miss service. i forsee it to be horrible. dhen gotta go watch movie with my mum. wheee. my brother wun be there. am feeling so so blessed. haha.
s c r a b b l e d u p m i n d
no offence to yong kee. the drawing was nice but the whole tee wasn't. its sort of equal to buying a plain black shirt for twelve bucks. yes i felt lyk throwing money but not to dhis extent. shud have voted against it. wadds done is done larh
damn cool. brother ish gone till mondayy. wheee. i am free. my hoildayy is so damn packed. lets look at my schedule.
mondayy. dental appointment and guitar.
tuesdayy. dance and guitar half an hour later.
wednesday. guitar. and bbq at serangoon two hours later. am gonna be late again.
thursdayy. dance and going to throw money!!!
friidayy. my dayy off. dhun expect me to go any where.
saturdayy. my tym with god.
sundayy. my tym with the piles of hw.
see i am not free. lalala.
my mum got a new fone for jux eight buckks. she traded in my old fone. *sobx i miss it. neva mind. the fone is cool jux dhat no gprs and infared.its damn cool. yea. eight bucks. facinating. dhen we went around walk walk. did sum dumb stuff. i am not gonna sayy wadd. cute larh. my mum is cute. haha.
yea. tmr got scrabble. gotta wake up early again. but its a sat. and i gotta miss service. i forsee it to be horrible. dhen gotta go watch movie with my mum. wheee. my brother wun be there. am feeling so so blessed. haha.
s c r a b b l e d u p m i n d
Thursday, March 10
i am dumb
i am feeling dumb
done so many dumb stuff todayy. okae larhh. since dance started i have been doing funnie stuff. i turn wrongly, dance wrongly, teach wrongly. got dhis jump rite, after jumping we were supposed to "collapse" on the floor. i relleh collapsed on the floor. veh tired larh. giddy oso. couldn't relleh think. practise de tym stil quite okae lorhh. dhen when zhen shi lai dhen so cham.
the last two questions of the geog killed me. mr so is not a nice teacher. so dhun misunderstand. he is horrigible.
yesterdayy had cg. was damn cool and fun. though i was abit late but i could sense the atmosphere was very high. ppl very excited, making effort to include everyone and let them interact. it is cool having qian as new cl. not sayy dhey all no good larhh. but qian adds on to the qi fen very nicely and get everyone high.
carn go service this week. dhun wanna go scrabble. sounds so tough. i think i will loose every match. dhun wanna disgrace my self, the sch and god oso. it ends so so late. i carn make it for service. bwahah. so sadd now. i dun wanna go scrabble. see, it even sounds so lame.
done so many dumb stuff todayy. okae larhh. since dance started i have been doing funnie stuff. i turn wrongly, dance wrongly, teach wrongly. got dhis jump rite, after jumping we were supposed to "collapse" on the floor. i relleh collapsed on the floor. veh tired larh. giddy oso. couldn't relleh think. practise de tym stil quite okae lorhh. dhen when zhen shi lai dhen so cham.
the last two questions of the geog killed me. mr so is not a nice teacher. so dhun misunderstand. he is horrigible.
yesterdayy had cg. was damn cool and fun. though i was abit late but i could sense the atmosphere was very high. ppl very excited, making effort to include everyone and let them interact. it is cool having qian as new cl. not sayy dhey all no good larhh. but qian adds on to the qi fen very nicely and get everyone high.
carn go service this week. dhun wanna go scrabble. sounds so tough. i think i will loose every match. dhun wanna disgrace my self, the sch and god oso. it ends so so late. i carn make it for service. bwahah. so sadd now. i dun wanna go scrabble. see, it even sounds so lame.
Monday, March 7
everyone is going mad
everyone is going mad.
yessh. i am surrounded by crazy people. i am concerned. i can help u call woodbrigde. dhey will take u home. dhun worry.
have been too lazy to blog lerh. lets start from thurs.
i went tampinese mall after skool. yes yes. there is test. but i had fun larhh. dhen bought new pencil case. jesus lives. yes yes. dhats on my pencil case. saw this shirt from s and k dhat i relleh lyked. guess i gonna save up to buy it. oh yar. dhen got guitar meeting de. dhen i clean forgotten about it. yeah. so msg ailin to noe wad happened. i am getting blurr.
friidayy.
had guitar. quite okae bahx. but got ppl pon. i wanna pon too. but dhey all no tym to pei me go out. nevamind. dhen met pherdx in the canteen. short tym but quite meaningful. she asked me wad i think is wrong with the caregroup and i told her. i neva expected myself to do dhat. have noticed the clique thing in our group for quite sumtym lerh. i didn't expect myself to actually sayy dhat. but i did. i am more open to my pherdx. dhen she took my guitar home for me cos i carrying lots of things. yeah! i lurffe my pherdx.
saturdayy.
oh whee. dumb gerr fang wo fei ji. so damn angry lorhh. she alwaes lykdhat de. getting to dhun lyk her more lerh. so sorry god. i love her larh. but i jux dhun lyk her. u get wad i mean? dhen went service. pherdx couldn't cum. but jasmine and swee hong came. feel rather excited and happie to see dhem. service was great. i lurffe praise. we were all jumping jumping when chialing suddenly disappeared. she sprained her ankle. awww. poor thing. i think she kinda fragile now. cos lyk dance will injure ppl de mahx. i relleh think she cao ke lian lorhh. go toilet oso need ppl to help her. she is such a shweet lil gerr.
dhen horr. suddenly i got chest pain. and the part above the stomach and below the heart was hurting too. i only told them about the one above the stomach. didn't wanna worry dhem cos chest pain quite serious. it is not gastric. dhen erniie bought hot milo for me. felt betta. felt lyk puking at furst. was betta dhen was hungry. eat a bit larh.
tym to go home. went to j8 with hsiaoen instead of going home. jux in the mood to shop and spend money larhh. we saw dhis damn cutee shirt. we are gonna buy. when i save the money. oh shuckks. i got to starve dhis week. so many things i wanna buy. dhen we took neos. we got cheated. dhen quite nice larhh but the neos were beeg. its okae.
we were tokking about our clique problems. she sayy is dhey all dunnoe wanna come mix with us. even when we already tried our best to mix with dhem. dhey only wanna mix with dhose ppl dhat dhey want to. but it think we have to put in more effort as well lorhh. i dunnoe larh. getting along with ur cg is not a choice or wad lorhh. it is a must. an obligation. dhey are still ur sistas in christ lorhh. u dhun have a choice. by wad u doing now, its lyk ripping the cg apart. ppl are drifting further from each other lerh. cos of u lorhh.
todayy jux slack around. brother is veh high todayy. totally mad.
o n e x t w o @ o n e
yessh. i am surrounded by crazy people. i am concerned. i can help u call woodbrigde. dhey will take u home. dhun worry.
have been too lazy to blog lerh. lets start from thurs.
i went tampinese mall after skool. yes yes. there is test. but i had fun larhh. dhen bought new pencil case. jesus lives. yes yes. dhats on my pencil case. saw this shirt from s and k dhat i relleh lyked. guess i gonna save up to buy it. oh yar. dhen got guitar meeting de. dhen i clean forgotten about it. yeah. so msg ailin to noe wad happened. i am getting blurr.
friidayy.
had guitar. quite okae bahx. but got ppl pon. i wanna pon too. but dhey all no tym to pei me go out. nevamind. dhen met pherdx in the canteen. short tym but quite meaningful. she asked me wad i think is wrong with the caregroup and i told her. i neva expected myself to do dhat. have noticed the clique thing in our group for quite sumtym lerh. i didn't expect myself to actually sayy dhat. but i did. i am more open to my pherdx. dhen she took my guitar home for me cos i carrying lots of things. yeah! i lurffe my pherdx.
saturdayy.
oh whee. dumb gerr fang wo fei ji. so damn angry lorhh. she alwaes lykdhat de. getting to dhun lyk her more lerh. so sorry god. i love her larh. but i jux dhun lyk her. u get wad i mean? dhen went service. pherdx couldn't cum. but jasmine and swee hong came. feel rather excited and happie to see dhem. service was great. i lurffe praise. we were all jumping jumping when chialing suddenly disappeared. she sprained her ankle. awww. poor thing. i think she kinda fragile now. cos lyk dance will injure ppl de mahx. i relleh think she cao ke lian lorhh. go toilet oso need ppl to help her. she is such a shweet lil gerr.
dhen horr. suddenly i got chest pain. and the part above the stomach and below the heart was hurting too. i only told them about the one above the stomach. didn't wanna worry dhem cos chest pain quite serious. it is not gastric. dhen erniie bought hot milo for me. felt betta. felt lyk puking at furst. was betta dhen was hungry. eat a bit larh.
tym to go home. went to j8 with hsiaoen instead of going home. jux in the mood to shop and spend money larhh. we saw dhis damn cutee shirt. we are gonna buy. when i save the money. oh shuckks. i got to starve dhis week. so many things i wanna buy. dhen we took neos. we got cheated. dhen quite nice larhh but the neos were beeg. its okae.
we were tokking about our clique problems. she sayy is dhey all dunnoe wanna come mix with us. even when we already tried our best to mix with dhem. dhey only wanna mix with dhose ppl dhat dhey want to. but it think we have to put in more effort as well lorhh. i dunnoe larh. getting along with ur cg is not a choice or wad lorhh. it is a must. an obligation. dhey are still ur sistas in christ lorhh. u dhun have a choice. by wad u doing now, its lyk ripping the cg apart. ppl are drifting further from each other lerh. cos of u lorhh.
todayy jux slack around. brother is veh high todayy. totally mad.
o n e x t w o @ o n e
Thursday, March 3
stup ii d f a t e
stupiid fate.
if life is a game,who are the players. who are the ones manipulating. who has control of the game? isit god or isit us? or could it be fate? wad is fate? is fate sumthing from god? wad is it exactly?
in my game, i am a player. so is god. i dunnoe who manipulates. burt i noe i am being manipulated. dhere is another player whom we often dhun see. fate. yes fate. friends and ppl we meet along the way are just stopovers of the game.
fate. fate makes u do things dhat u dun wanna do.. sumtyms lets u appear in places dhat u dun wanna be at. it makes u do least expected things of urself. fate make things happen. like wad it did to me. i am not in charge of this game. things happen. sumtyms too quickly. unexpectedly. i dhunnoe if it leads to sumthing gud or bad. i jux have to wait and see. u have to learn to trust fate. at tyms it jux does gud. fate made me make desicions dhat others dhun understand.dhun ask me. ask fate. fate tore us apart. but isit bringing us back now? i dhunnoe. any way u are jux a stopover. we have to learn to get hurt. and recover. its jux part of the game.
been quite hyper lately. if u see me, i would most probably be jumping around. common test has been going on quite fine for me. so easy lorhh. okae larhh. some quite tough. study abit for science le. quite confident. so bhb. nahx. forgetit. having cramps now. dhun wan go school. going off to do d n t.
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if life is a game,who are the players. who are the ones manipulating. who has control of the game? isit god or isit us? or could it be fate? wad is fate? is fate sumthing from god? wad is it exactly?
in my game, i am a player. so is god. i dunnoe who manipulates. burt i noe i am being manipulated. dhere is another player whom we often dhun see. fate. yes fate. friends and ppl we meet along the way are just stopovers of the game.
fate. fate makes u do things dhat u dun wanna do.. sumtyms lets u appear in places dhat u dun wanna be at. it makes u do least expected things of urself. fate make things happen. like wad it did to me. i am not in charge of this game. things happen. sumtyms too quickly. unexpectedly. i dhunnoe if it leads to sumthing gud or bad. i jux have to wait and see. u have to learn to trust fate. at tyms it jux does gud. fate made me make desicions dhat others dhun understand.dhun ask me. ask fate. fate tore us apart. but isit bringing us back now? i dhunnoe. any way u are jux a stopover. we have to learn to get hurt. and recover. its jux part of the game.
been quite hyper lately. if u see me, i would most probably be jumping around. common test has been going on quite fine for me. so easy lorhh. okae larhh. some quite tough. study abit for science le. quite confident. so bhb. nahx. forgetit. having cramps now. dhun wan go school. going off to do d n t.
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